NOW IT'S RAINING MORE THAN NEVER...

I want to scream but my throat has a big bomb of fear....
I want to run away... but It could be so stupid becasue... I ASSUME that I ran away two month and a half ago...
I want to write but... is impossible...
I want to smoke, but... I'm not good of healty.... BUUUT... I'm going to smoke...
I want to fuck... but He should be with him husband..... and the lover has to wait.... (I hate always play the same role)....
I want him... I want him back... I want the other looking me... I want you...
I want I want I want!!!!

Ok, enought for today... "the drama queen" must go home... This week the work, the school are waiting for me.... Maybe when I leave the U the rain stop....

In the boat...

My brazilian roomate is a little strange...
I don't know what to do for his birthday.... in 2 days.... but.... I need help.
I like my manager... He's so hot, He's so sexy!


In my mind...

Misery Bussines. Paramore.
Love is noise. The Verbe.
The Fear. Lilly Allen.
Umbrella. Rihanna.
Why do you love me. Garbage.
Pets. Porno of Pyros.
Believe. Cher.
I'm not dead. Pink.

HOT MORNING!

"Two hearts are bitten together".... Kylie you're reading my mind!. Sometimes is crazy, I'm trying to close my eyes but is impossible , they are in all the room, all the toilets, all the kitchen room, all clasesrooms, all the school. They are, hot, sexy, calling me with their eyes, their legs, their faces... all their body... I can't resist.

Boys, boys, turks, italians, brazilians, swiss, germans, argentineans, chileans, mexicans, spanish, latin, aussies... I'm going crazy!!! Men, hot men! Sexy men! Crazy men! naked men! I love them! I'm looking for them, they're finding me.... I have never felt something like this... This is a fucking and hot paradise... So, I'll keep listening music and analyzing them...

Sounds
2 Hearts. Kylie Minoge.
He's a dream. Shandi.
Boys boys boys. Sabrina.
Love Cats. Tricky.
100% Chromeo

LIES LIES LIES

Sometimes I feel that I´m fine, that all the pain had gone away, but I know that is lie, because the pain is still in my heart and I can´t stop him. I understand the change, and I´m sure the change is going to help me, but I can´t see a light... I can´t see anything… my life is like a big and dark tunnel and when I walk through it I just see many pictures in on the wall. The pictures have all the moments of my life since I met you.

Pictures with my family, with yours, with my friends, with yours… pictures of you, pictures of me, pictures together, kissing, dancing, living, hugging, laughing, screaming, loving… In the end of the tunnel is a big picture of you… after no pictures and after a picture of me… crying…

In a moment I open my eyes and I remember that I´m so stronger and I can´t flag…

In my mind...

Alone. Hearth.
Turn Back Time. Aqua.
Till the end of time. Devonchtka.